Of Feeling Lonely...

For some people it is easier to forgive than to forget. But for some, forgetting is a lot easier than forgiving.

Would you forgive someone who said or did something to hurt you even when they didn’t ask for it, out of your own free will?

I think it is easier for me to forgive than to forget. Maybe that is because I am a lawyer and I remember every single details of my life. A curse some may say. When I broke up with my 1st ex for cheating on me (he admitted it few years later after we broke up) I thought I would never forget what he did. I still haven’t. I remembered everything he said to me, the reason he gave for breaking up with me. But slowly I forgave him even though he didn’t ask for my forgiveness until a few years later. I needed to forgive him so I could move on with my life.

Then there was this friend of mine of often said things without thinking. He often shoots off his mouth and you wouldn’t believe the things that came out from his mouth. He thinks that people would be okay with whatever he said just because he said it was a joke. I know some of you would say, “Why don’t you tell him off? Tell him that you don’t think it’s funny and that he was being rude?”

Well I wish it was that simple. You see, people like this will come back and tell you,

“Why are you so uptight? It was just a joke! Can’t you take a joke? Next time I will never joke with you coz obviously you can’t take it! You are so sensitive!”

See how they turn it around and make it look like you’re the one who is over-sensitive and doesn’t have a sense of humour? So when you are around these kinds of people it’s best to stay quiet or better yet don’t be around these kind of people. Your hati tak sakit and you’ll have a peace of mind.

I was listening to this song called “The Heart of The Matter” and I can so relate with the lyrics.

“All the people in your life who've come and gone

They let you down, you know they hurt your pride

Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on

You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily ever after

And my heart is so shattered

But I know it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if, you don't love me anymore…”

On another note, I went to watch “Sepi” last night with hubby. I thought it was a good movie. But somehow “Cinta” was better. Maybe because when I watched “Cinta” I was crying like there’s no tomorrow sampai my sleeves jadik mangsa lelehan airmata and air hidung I. In “Sepi”, I love how the characters came together and how they are connected to each other. I loved Ean-Imaan-Khalil storyline. I thought Baizura Kahar’s and Tony Eusoffe’s acting were superb, although I thought Marya-Sufi storyline was a bit mengarut and corny to the max. Kasut aircond?? Seriously??

What else? Oh yeah, Afdlin was … Afdlin. The character was created for him. I don’t see anyone else playing “Adam”. He was funny yet you can feel his loneliness. I’m sure a lot of people can relate with Adam. Always being invited to weddings but don’t know when you are getting married yourself. Always putting on a tough exterior and making jokes when on the inside it hurts like hell to feel so alone. Yeah, I can relate to Adam.

Anyways, I would still recommend that you watch the movie. Bring some tissue ya. You won’t cry throughout the whole movie but you will definitely cry at some parts. Just be prepared.