In a few more days we will be coming to the end of 2008. A lot of things had happened this year, some are exciting and nice and some are just sad and depressing.
Hubby and I have been trying very hard for a baby this year but I don’t think it’s going to happen anytime soon. Disappointed? Yes, of course I am. But it’s only been a year and I am not going to give up that easily. I have been to a doctor and InsyaAllah we will do whatever that is necessary to get pregnant. My relationship with hubby has been really good so far. We have our fights as most couple normally do, some fights were silly ones and some were pretty intense. But we made-up really fast and we talked more about our problems with each other, instead of giving each other silent treatments. Hubby is the kind of guy who wants to talk about everything. I mean if I get angry at him for some reason then he would just badger me to talk about it over and over again. If I don’t answer his call then he would call 50 times and leave countless text messages until I answer them. He sometimes doesn’t understand the concept of leaving me alone to cool off for a while and hence causing me to get even angrier with him. If I am angry then I just want to be left alone until I cool off on my own because if you’re trying to use logic with me when I’m mad then you’re wasting your breath and time.
But now I think he is getting it. He knows now how to handle me when I’m upset. Thank god.
Work wise, everything has been good, Alhamdulillah. I am surrounded by really good people. I don’t think of them as my colleagues anymore but as good friends. One of them is getting married next year and I foresee we will be having lots of fun planning her hen night. I already know what I’m going to make her do *evil laugh*
I heard we may be getting our bonus and increment tonight. I hope and pray it’s a good bonus. I don’t understand when employers say that because of the economic downturn they have to slash our bonus. I mean we worked really hard all year round despite the economic downturn so it should not affect our bonus at all since we are entitled to it, right?
As for friendships, well, I have to say this year has been a very trying year for me. Some misunderstanding had caused a rift to the friendship and friends ended up not talking to each other. We can apologise and asked for forgiveness till kingdom come and try to salvage whatever that is left of the friendship but if one party decide that the friendship is worth foregoing then there is nothing we can do. As for me, I can only give her time and hoped that in the future we will be able to talk to each other like we used to. Not everything bad had happened this year. I’ve made some wonderful friends whom I know I can count on for support and I have my wonderful existing friends who are willing to accept my shortcomings and understand where I am coming from. I can be loud and opinionated at times but I am a softie inside.
Anyway, I’ve learned that you can’t take friendship for granted. I’ve learned it the hard way. As much as I want to salvage the friendship, I have to accept the fact that you can’t make people do what they don’t want to do. When their heart is no longer in it, then there is no point to continue further.
With all that said and done, I have to say that I am looking forward to 2009.
I am looking forward to make a baby or babies (hubby said that there are twins in his family…hehehe…) with hubby.
I am looking forward to my 2nd Wedding Anniversary and my 35th Birthday in February.
I am looking forward to my next promotion. Heh…InsyaAllah. Just have to be more focus and work harder.
I want to wish everyone Merry Xmas and a very Happy New Year. I pray that next year will be a better year for all of us.