Of Being A Tad Emo...

I cried when I read this before coming to work. I read it the second time when I got into the office and I cried again. Yes, I’m feeling very emotional today.

Such a sweet, sweet man. Lucky woman, that wife of his.

On Tuesday, I told hubby that I was going to come home a bit late as I was supposed to attend a farewell dinner for a colleague at one of the restaurants in Bukit Bintang. I came back around 10pm and saw hubby having dinner in the room with the laptop in front of him. I felt guilty because he had to have dinner alone but at the same time I felt sad because he didn’t ask me how my eye appointment at the doctor went. So I kinda “merajuk” with him and after I took my shower I didn’t even stay in the room with him. I went downstairs to watch television and left him all alone in the room. I was feeling angry and sad and melancholic at the same time. Maybe because I was having my menstrual and my hormones tak betul skit.

After I watched the television I went up to my room and saw hubby had already slept. It was around 11.30pm and he didn’t usually sleep that early. I switched off the lights and went to sleep too.

The next morning I woke up and got myself ready for work and hubby was also getting ready for work and hubby asked me what was wrong. He asked me why I was moody last night. I told hubby I was just feeling melancholic and I had no mood. Hubby said it’s okay, he understood and gave me a big hug and a kiss and told me it’s all gonna be okay. I told him I was sorry and he said there was nothing to be sorry about.

Sometimes I think I am a little bit harsh on my hubby. I don’t mean to be but sometimes I get angry and sad at myself and I let it out on him, which I know I shouldn’t but still do. Him, being an understanding and a wonderful husband just took it all in. I am sorry, hubby. I will try to be a better wife. I just hope that you’ll be patient with me. Even though you don’t understand why I am acting in a certain way, I just need for you to love me. You don’t have to understand me but you just need to love me. That’s all.

Family Day @ Sunway Lagoon

My office had its Family Day last weekend at Sunway Lagoon. Hareez enjoyed himself in the pool. Hubby had a blast too. So cute seeing both of them together i.e. Hareez and Hubby.

Notice his crooked fringe? Yes, I did it. I rimas sgt tengok his hair asyik dok masuk mata so I took the scissors and snip snip snip! I blame his dad for not bringing him to the barber to get his hair properly cut. I've been telling my bro so many times but still dia tak bawak Hareez so me being a "concern" Aunt decided to take matter into her own hands and cut his hair. Now I feel so bad coz it's not properly cut and my Hubby kept laughing and said that Hareez looked like "Temenggung/Tun Jugah"...ye ke? Jahat tau! Sian budak tu.

His fringe didn't look so crooked when its dry. Hehehe...

Hmmpphh! Sungguh tak seksi those dancers. Keding!

I don't think this clown is "straight". Not only does he look gay, he's also scary looking. Iskh! I HATE clowns! hareez is afraid of clowns too. Hubby kept saying Hareez is sissy for being afraid of clowns but I dont think so! That boy is just sensitive. Hmmpphh!

See? He's not afraid of Barney, what?!

U thinka me skoopid ka?

I just received the email below in my gmail account. Like seriously??? Hangpa ingat cheq bodo piang ka?

First of all, anything from Africa besides Apartheid and Nelson Mandela is dodgy.

Secondly I've never heard of Shell Foundation.

And thirdly, ingat senang2 ka cheq nak bagi cheq punya personal details?

Dear Shell Beneficiary,

Shell Foundation wishes to notify you of the just concluded ONLINE promotion held on the 10th of August in its Shell House, Southern Africa.

During the mid-2007 Shell canvassed the views of people and organizations in over 40 countries that unequivocally agreed that Shell can extend its Social Responsibilities and promotions to individuals worldwide by an unbiased selection of winners through a Random selection of winners.

Shell Foundation has no other way to get to the least individual in the world than adopting a Random Selection of e-mail addresses from e-mail users worldwide. Therefore a draw was conducted during our annual Promotions held in Johannesburg, South Africa through a random selection of e-mail addresses from an exclusive list of 159,504,231 e-mail addresses of individuals and Corporate bodies picked by an advanced automated random e-mail address search from the internet in all the countries where Shell Operates which is a part of our social responsibility to our business environment. However, no tickets were sold but all e-mail addresses were assigned to different ticket numbers for representation and privacy.

After this automated computer ballot, your e-mail address emerged as the 64th winner from 87 winners in the Second category for the (3rd) third-prize with the following data:

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Your prize falls under our Southern Africa Sub-Regional Office in Johannesburg and has been insured with your e-mail address and will be transferred to you by our Affiliate Bank in South Africa upon meeting the requirements, statutory obligations, verifications, validations and satisfactory report by our accredited Agent. To file for your claim, please contact our fiduciary/Legal agent in that region with the below details for processing of your claims;

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If you're happy and you know it....

I've got a lot of reasons to be happy about this week.

• Hubby has got a new job. He tendered today. Yayyyyy!!!! He no longer has to deal with that biatch boss of his. Good luck in trying to find someone as hardworking as my husband, u bitch! Hubby will be working in one of the telecommunication company in a month's time. He's been miserable for so long in his current job. His boss is one crazeeee woman! This month alone 3 people (including hubby) have tendered their resignation in his dept. 2 person tendered because they couldnt take it anymore and they haven't even found another job before tendering. So you have an idea how psychotic his boss is. His boss gives bad rep to lady bosses everywhere. She's temperamental, shouts at her subordinates in front of everyone in the office, gives a direction then gives another contradicting direction and when her subordinates ask her to check whether what they're doing is right, she would instead yell at them for asking her and tell them that they should know what to do but when a mistake is made she would blame them for not asking her in the first place. See what I mean when I say she's a nutcase?

• My company is organising its family day at....SUNWAY LAGOON this Saturday! I'm bringing my nephew Hareez and I'm counting on hubby to babysit him while he's in the pool. Hehehe...I haven't figured out what to wear yet. Do they allow tshirts in the pool? Hmmmm...

• I'm so excited about my upcoming trip to Cherating next weekend. I'll be going there with 4 of my friends together with their hubbies and children. My schoolmates and I (SMDJ rules!!!) would organise a trip once a year. Meeting up over coffee during the weekend is not an option for us as each of us is pretty much busy with work and other commitments. One friend is working in a Ministry in Putrajaya and her boss is known for not approving her leave at the very last minute (don't you just hate bosses like that?) and the fact that he allowed her to take leave to come with us to Cherating is like a miracle. One friend is working in a merchant bank in KL and her boss is also from hell. He would take credit for the work that she does and depends on her to feed him information everytime before a big meeting. One friend is working in a private firm in Rawang and thank god she has got a fairly OK boss. Another friend is not working. Full time that is. She's doing her PhD in biochemical something something and working as a part time lecturer in Kuantan.

So there it is. After I wrote everything I realised that I wrote more about bosses from hell than news that made me happy this week. Hmmmm...Oh well, sod it. Have a nice weekend everyone!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

It’s so hard to maintain friendships nowadays.

Sometimes things we say which is meant as a joke could be construed wrongly and the other party gets hurt by it. Believe me, once it is spoken, damage is done and there is no way to take it back. For people who forgive easily, whose heart could not fathom of holding grudges for a long time then it’s easier to ask for forgiveness. But for some whose hearts are like stone, it’s not that easy. It could take days or even years for them to forgive you.

No matter how many friends you have, you could never be perfect at maintaining friendship.

A friend forwarded an email on friendship and it said,

“A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself”

I remember there was a point in my life when I felt alone, I had just broken up with my 1st ex who happened to be my very first serious boyfriend and it was my very 1st serious relationship. My self-esteem was very low, I felt unwanted and not worthy of being loved. I felt that the reason he broke up with me was because my family wasn’t as rich or esteemed as his, that I wasn’t as pretty as all the other lawyer chicks that he was befriending at that time and that I didn’t possess the same level of intellectual as he did. Friends were consoling me and telling me what a prick he was. That anyone would be lucky enough to have me as their girlfriend as I was smart, witty and that I have a great personality. Of course I didn’t believe a word they say. In my heart, I thought they were only saying all this to make me feel better. I’m not saying I don’t appreciate their kind words but after a while you tend not to believe it even though you know they have got your best interest at heart.

While I was feeling all sad and worthless, a friend, R, said that if I thought I was ugly then I should change the way I look. If I thought I was fat then I should loose some weight. She said, “Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, you will achieve.” (I later asked her where she cedok the corny lines from and she said it was from Salt N Pepa...haha...).

R didn’t try to console me by singing praises to me. She said only I can get back my self-esteem. Only I have the power to make myself feel better. She stood by me and never let me give up. I would wake up suddenly at night and feel like crying my heart out and I would call her and she would just listen. She wouldn’t offer any advice unless I asked for it. Whenever I was whining about never finding a guy that could love me like how my ex loved me, she would tell me to shut-up and stop feeling sorry for myself. It was brutal yeah but it was the best thing she could've said to me that point in time.

R is now married with a daughter. We haven’t spoken for quite sometime but we know deep in our hearts that we are friends for life. We don’t talk for 3 months and when we talked it was as if we’ve just spoken to each other yesterday. She is the kind of friend that “You can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation that you ever had.” To me that’s the best kind of friend. I could always trust R to tell me the truth even when it hurts. For that I would always cherish my friendship with R until the day I die.

Do you often asked yourself what kind of friends that you would like to surround yourself with? Obviously not someone who punishes you when you don’t call but someone who understands that sometimes it’s just hard to catch up. Someone who understands that being married and having children is not an excuse for you to drop them out of your life. Someone who understands that just because a friend is single and you’re married, you never try to marry off your single friend and think that’s what they want too (unless they specifically ask you to set a blind date for them).

So you see, friendship could easily break down when both parties do not understand each other. When there is a breakdown in communication or when one party just do not bother to make the effort. When this happens, it’s better to just let go. There is no point in trying to fix the friendship when you’re the only one putting in the effort. Some bridges just need to be burned and not worth salvaging.

So I say, make new friends. I know for a fact there are plenty of nice people out there. You just have to make the effort. Strangers could surprise you sometimes. You never know until you make that first step.

*smile*

Ahoy Matey!

While everyone else was having their normal bout of flu, cough, headache, fever and not so normal arthritis (sorry Missy!), I had to have another STYE on my eye. Same eye in fact. This time it's even bigger and it throbs like hell!! Friends said I should have it checked out. Errmm..did I tell you I'm afraid of doctors? Especially doctors at the hospital.

Oh please God, please make the swelling subside before the weekend. I don't want to spend the weekend just staying at home. I plan to pujuk my husb to take me to Chilis coz I feel like having the Triple Play. Hmmm..maybe I should put a patch on my left eye like Captain Hook. Ranggi tak u think?

Of Happy Feet and Lovely Weekend

I DECLARE TODAY TO BE A "HAPPY FEET" DAY!!

Show your support by showing your feet to the person next to you!!



I lurve the colour of my inai. It's sooo...orangy-red!


Hubby's feet. Hmmm...a perfect 10. What do people say about a man's toe again?


My anklet have bells. Whoopeee! Kaki Gajah betul.

My MaryJane Crocs is Brown in colour. How now brown cow?

My friend Ani, the Horny Bunny bought these funky slepar Jepun for me in Bali...or was it The Girl With Hot Butt who bought it for me? Tak kisahlah coz I lurve them. So comfy! I wonder if they still have em in Bali...hmmm...Sheryl, buy for me a pair can ah? Preferably Pruple.

Last weekend, I cooked Fish n Chips for my family. My SIL do not eat fish so we got her the black pepper chicken from Tesco instead.

Home-made tartar sauce with gherkins and mayo. And some home-made coleslaw too!

My brother brought his 2 month-old daughter, Fisyah over to the house. She's so round and cute. She was perfectly happy and was smiling and laughing when I played with her. Then Hareez got jealous and cried coz I was paying too much attention on Fisyah.

Which then made Fisyah cry too!

Hareez imitating Lionel Messi. That boy is gonna be a great footballer one day...I hope.