Last night I came back from work quite late and missed meeting up with Cik Pijah and gang at Mamak Bistro, Subang. Damn! Next time yeah Cik Pijah.
My colleague, Noobs told me that there was going to be a 'Malaysia Property Exposition (MAPEX) 2006 at Mid Valley Exhibition Centre (MVEC) from 3rd – 5th March and I thought it would be a good idea to check it out this weekend seeing that I may be getting married this year and will probably have to move out from my parents’ place.
So I had a long talk with my mom last night about my future plans i.e. getting married and all. My mom said that after getting married I should not move out yet and stay with them for a while until I can afford to buy my own place. At first that sounded like a good idea but after thinking about it I thought it would be better to have our own place since it would be easier and convenient for the boyfriend’s parents to stay with us when they come for a visit instead of putting up in a hotel. I then told my mom that I wanted to buy an apartment and move out after I got married and my mom went quiet for a while. She asked me why I wanted to move out so quickly and that she would miss me too much and the house would be very quiet without me around, who would she talk to, who would take her grocery shopping, who would make her tea everyday etc. When she was saying all that I felt so sebak and had tears in my eyes. I am very close to my mom. Since I am the only girl in the family and the eldest I guess it’s only natural that I am close to my mom. I am blessed to have such a wonderful and understanding mom. She was never the kind of mother who would nag you and pressure you to get married. When I broke up with my 1st and 2nd exes, she was very supportive and told me that I should take my time and don’t just pick the next guy that comes along just because I was getting older and felt pressured to get married. She never tried to set me up with any of her friends’ sons and basically let me make my own decisions on things concerning my life. And that is why I think she’s the best mom ever.
So it is going to be damn hard when I have to leave the house. I have a feeling…No, I know for sure that I am going to cry for a few weeks after I move out from the house. And after we get married, if the boyfriend say we have to move to Sarawak then I know I would cry for a whole year!!! Oey! To think that I may not be able to spend 1st day of Hari Raya with my family is enough to make me feel like I am not ready to get married. I did have this conversation before with the boyfriend and he said that it is normal to feel sad but once we have children I would not be thinking so much about being away from my family during Hari Raya because I would be busy with the children. Is that true? Somehow I dont think it will make any difference whether I have children or not. I would still feel sad. men and their logic. Hmmpphh!
Hmmm...I may need a lawyer to draw up a pre-nuptial agreement barring the boyfriend from dropping that sorta bomb on me during the first 20 years of marriage.