Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Just Another Ordinary Day

I received an email from my friend Banana this morning. She wished me Happy Belated Birthday and asked me what I did on my birthday last Sunday.

Well, for the first time ever I did nothing special. Hubby fell ill while we were in Langkawi. He was having really high fever, headache and his body was aching all over on our first night there. We thought it was just a normal fever so I took him to Hospital Langkawi the next day. I couldn’t find a clinic believe it or not. When we got to the hospital hubby was shivering because he was so cold. We had to wait for our turn for more than an hour. When we got to see the doctor who looks like she just got out of med school, she told hubby that it was just a normal fever and gave him antibiotics and flu meds. She told him that if he doesn’t feel any better then he was to come back and see her. Right.

We went back to our chalet and hubby took his meds and went back to sleep. Even after taking the meds he still had headaches and his body was still aching but we managed to go island hopping the next day. When we came back I tried to make him eat something but he couldn’t. He said he has this bitter taste in his mouth. Even if he ate something he would throw up thereafter.

When we came back to KL he went to the clinic and did a blood test because he still had fever and headache. The doctor suspected he had dengue because his platelet and white blood cell count had gone down. To be on the safe side I took him to the hospital and he got admitted. Later in the evening the doctor confirmed that it was indeed dengue.

His platelet went down to as low as 52 before it went up again. I fed him crab soup, juice from the papaya leaves and he drank bottles and bottles of 100 plus. Whatever food that could help get his platelet up, I fed it to him. There is actually no vaccine or meds to treat dengue fever!

Then on Sunday which was on my birthday, hubby got discharged as his platelet had gone up and he said he was feeling much better. I guess that is a gift in itself but I’m not a saint. If I ever come across that stupid Aedes mosquito that bit him I would lenyek-lenyek that stupid insect sampai hancur!! I know it’s not his fault that he got sick which in turned had ruined our anniversary and my birthday. But I can’t help but feel disappointed. I know, I know. I’m a bad person for feeling this way but I’m only human. He said sorry so many times and I believed that he was sorry even though he doesn’t have to be because it’s not his fault. I mean if it had happened to me I would feel really bad too. So that’s why I don’t give him any grief about it.

When I get upset or angry I write everything down. Hence this post. It’s the only way for me to let go of all this bad feelings that I’m having. Please don’t tell me I should be grateful that he is getting better because I am grateful. I thank god that it wasn’t dengue hemorrhagic fever or chikunguya or that he didn’t have to get a blood transfusion. I don’t know who to be angry or upset at. But I am feeling it right now. Oh please God, I don’t want to be a bad wife. For some people celebrating birthdays and anniversary may seemed petty and frivolous but when you’re so looking forward to it and things don’t go as planned it is damn frustrating. I know I need to get over it fast. I am trying to.

Happy thoughts, happy thoughts. Happy Birthday Sher. May next year be better than this year and may Allah grant me his blessings and may all my wishes come true. Amin...

9 comments:

kruel74 said...

Didn't even wish you happy birthday, so here's the wish. You can always do the holiday again, and this time consider it as a ganti. Lots of long weekend this year (6 of it, so take advantage of it)

rozzdabozz said...

c_gurl,

Take it easy....happy belated birthday anyway...may ur hubby gets better...next public holiday kasi qada laaaa

cheers..

pugly said...

You know what? This means that the celebration would be much sweeter next year :-)

Ms B said...

Happy birthday CG! the only reason I'm still celebrating is bcos my girl insists on it. Otherwise, malas and i dont expect people to know too.

Anyway, glad to know all is well. I think for some of us, simplicity is always the best approach.

j or ji said...

happy belated birthday.
langkawi tiap tahun boleh pergi ok.
:)

Cosmic_GurL said...

kruel - Thanks Apak. Amboi, uve counted all of them? Hehehe...

RDB - Thanks. No more holiday-ing with him. Hmmpphh. Merajuk already...

pugs - Yeah i hope so too...insyaAllah..

Ms B - Thank you dear! You know what, you should always celebrate your bday and make a big deal out of it...you have a very smart daughter there...you dont have to shout to the whole world it's your bday but at least your loved ones should remember to wish you. The day u stop celebrating your bday is the day you stop breathing :)

jorji - Thank you. Every year ka? Adoi, boring la :P

shell said...

Hi Sherry,

hey, we were in Langkawi last weekend too for pijah's hens party.

It's ok to be angry, i think, i would too. but you bukannya marah dia kan, marah the situation.

Anyways, hope your hubby will get well soon and happy belated birthday!

maszuzu said...

beb..nothing is better than honesty...so wht if you feel bad, after all kiter human kan? but the fact that u feel blessed and just want to fret a lil' why not...so go on beb..fret a lil' hahahaaa

Cosmic_GurL said...

Shell - Aiyakkkk!! If I had known then I could go lepak with u gurls..hehehehe...

Mas - hahaha...I love how u think. Thanks babe :)