I have lost the will to write

I’ve lost the will to write. I think all my creative juices have been drained out. I’ve got so many stories to tell but I can’t translate them into words. It is so frustrating.

On being away for Raya

It’s the 12th day of Ramadhan and I’ve been receiving several invitations for breaking fast. However, this year I think I shall try to break fast as often as I can at home with my parents and siblings, especially during the weekend, since I won’t be spending Hari Raya with them this year. I’ve already booked our flight tickets to Kuching (Airasia tix cost me RM600 over!!) and it looks like I will be spending Hari Raya with the in-laws and not with my parents for the very first time. I’m sure I will get used to it over time but I guess the first time is always the hardest. I must make sure I stay away from all those sad Raya songs.

On fasting and breaking fast

You know how some people say they will try to loose some weight during the month of Ramadhan? Ain’t never gonna happen I tell you! Unless of course you stay away from all the buffets and pasar ramadhan then maybe you can loose about 1-2 kilos. Maximum would be 5 kilos. The trick is not to eat rice during iftar and sahur but can you actually survive without rice the whole of Ramadhan? Hmmm…I know I can’t.

Have you guys been to any of the pasar ramadhan lately? Everything is so expensive. There’s this one makcik in tmn tun who sells pulut panggang for RM1.50 a piece! Nasib baik sedap but still too expensive I think. My brother bought a piece of ayam percik in Bangsar and it costs him RM6! And it’s not even a big piece. There’s also this popiah stall near the entrance at pasar ramadhan tmn tun where you can see so many people queuing up just to buy the popiah which cost 60 sen a piece. I’ve tasted the popiah and it is nice but not really mind-blowing delicious la but somehow the queue was so long that you’d think it’s the world’s best popiah.

On Cinta

Last night my SIL came over to the house and asked me whether I mind babysitting my 3 month old niece, Cinta. I think she planed to have a romantic night out with my brother after 3 months being cooped up in the house with the baby. The good aunt that I am, I said yes. My SIL assured me that Cinta is a good baby as in she doesn’t wake up so often for feeding, she usually needs feeding at midnight then will sleep throughout the night and then wake up at 6am the next morning for her next feeding. So I thought, “Hey that’s easy peasy”. Boy was I wrong. She ended up waking upat 1am, 4am and 7am for feeding! My goodness! That girl can really drink milk. No wonder she’s so “sihat”. Now I’m in the office and so sleepy. I can hardly get my eyes open. I don’t know how some mothers do it. Especially working mothers. Wait, let me rephrase that. Especially working mothers with lazy husbands who refuse to wake up to feed the baby. Anyhow, since Cinta is such a cute bundle of joy I don’t mind babysitting her again. Even my hubby adores her.

Easy Listening

Songs that you should listen to while driving to work in the morning. It will definitely make you less stressful even though you're stuck in a jam.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

NKOTB – Summertime

Kate Nash – Merry Happy

The Ting Tings – That’s Not My Name

The Fratellis – Baby Fratelli

Pussycat Dolls – When I Grow Up

Ingrid Michaelson – The Way I Am

Sara Bareilles – Love Song

Oh yeah, you should listen to some of the songs below. I don't have the download link but if you want to listen to them just send me an email and ill forward to you the song. Sharing is caring afterall...hehehe

• Pink Martini - Sympathique
• Antsy Pants - Vampire
• The Zutons - Don't Ever Think
• Fergie - Labels or Love

If you quit, does it make you a loser?

Karen: Tell me, if you were in my position, what would you do?

Harry: What position is that?

Karen: Imagine your husband bought a gold necklace and come Christmas gave it to somebody else...

Karen: Would you wait around to find out if it's just a necklace, or if it's sex and a necklace, or if worst of all it's a necklace and love? Would you stay, knowing life would always be a little bit worse? Or would you cut and run?

My friend found out her husband had slept with another woman. When asked why he did it, he answered because he was seduced, that it didn’t mean anything and that he was sorry. My friend cried till there were no more tears left. At one point she blamed God for giving her such “dugaan”. She knows it will be hard trusting him again. So she asked whether she should stay or cut and run.

In the end, she decided to stay in the marriage. After all, quitting are for losers. And she is not a quitter she says.

May God give her strength.

Of This and That...

On “I Wanna Have Boobies”

Have you guys listened to the Pussycat Doll’s new single called “When I Grow Up”? I swear I heard she said, “When I grow up I wanna have BOOBIES”. But I checked the lyrics on the internet and it says “I wanna have GROUPIES”. But I saw their videoclip and when she was saying “I wanna have groupies” she was holding up her boobs. Why? Why would she do that? Hahaha…Damn confusing man. I mean like Nicole Scherzinger needs "more" boobies right?

On The Dark Knight

Oh I’ve watched The Dark Knight last week. Damn good movie. Heath Ledger was phenomenal. I never knew I could hate a villain so much like I hated The Joker. I mean Jack Nicholson as The Joker in the previous Batman movie was a complete sissy compared to Heath Ledger’s portrayal as The Joker. Ledger was disturbing and twisted at the same time. “Why so serious?” indeed! He should get an Oscar right now! Hehehe…However, I did think the movie was a bit too long and some parts were a bit draggy (I’m gonna get killed for saying this, aren’t I?). I guess it’s one of Chris Nolan’s trademarks i.e. his movies must be more than 2 hours long. Remember V for Vendetta?

Good acting by Christian Bale too. I’ve always liked his acting ever since he played the sick and twisted yuppie in The American Psycho. I still remember his famous line from the movie – “I think my mask of sanity is about to slip”. A chilling performance.

On Chick Flicks

So next week my girlfriends and I are set to watch Sex and the City. Hubby dah cakap awal-awal that he will NOT be watching the movie with me. He says it is such a chick flick, too girlie for him. Hellllloooo??!!! It’s not too girlie okay. Pffffttttbbbhhh! Some men just cannot appreciate movies without an elaborate car chase scene, buildings being blown up and people blown up to pieces.

On Hubby Being Away

Hubby is off to Penang from today until Saturday for some teambuilding thingy organised by his office. I already miss him. This morning I had no one to fight with on who should take a shower first. No bumping into him when we’re both busy getting ready in front of the mirror. No morning mail from him. Sigh. I’ll only see him on Sunday because I’m off to Sg. Petani from tomorrow until Sunday with my parents visiting my grandparents.

Have a good weekend everyone.

Of Feeling Lonely...

For some people it is easier to forgive than to forget. But for some, forgetting is a lot easier than forgiving.

Would you forgive someone who said or did something to hurt you even when they didn’t ask for it, out of your own free will?

I think it is easier for me to forgive than to forget. Maybe that is because I am a lawyer and I remember every single details of my life. A curse some may say. When I broke up with my 1st ex for cheating on me (he admitted it few years later after we broke up) I thought I would never forget what he did. I still haven’t. I remembered everything he said to me, the reason he gave for breaking up with me. But slowly I forgave him even though he didn’t ask for my forgiveness until a few years later. I needed to forgive him so I could move on with my life.

Then there was this friend of mine of often said things without thinking. He often shoots off his mouth and you wouldn’t believe the things that came out from his mouth. He thinks that people would be okay with whatever he said just because he said it was a joke. I know some of you would say, “Why don’t you tell him off? Tell him that you don’t think it’s funny and that he was being rude?”

Well I wish it was that simple. You see, people like this will come back and tell you,

“Why are you so uptight? It was just a joke! Can’t you take a joke? Next time I will never joke with you coz obviously you can’t take it! You are so sensitive!”

See how they turn it around and make it look like you’re the one who is over-sensitive and doesn’t have a sense of humour? So when you are around these kinds of people it’s best to stay quiet or better yet don’t be around these kind of people. Your hati tak sakit and you’ll have a peace of mind.

I was listening to this song called “The Heart of The Matter” and I can so relate with the lyrics.

“All the people in your life who've come and gone

They let you down, you know they hurt your pride

Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on

You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily ever after

And my heart is so shattered

But I know it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if, you don't love me anymore…”

On another note, I went to watch “Sepi” last night with hubby. I thought it was a good movie. But somehow “Cinta” was better. Maybe because when I watched “Cinta” I was crying like there’s no tomorrow sampai my sleeves jadik mangsa lelehan airmata and air hidung I. In “Sepi”, I love how the characters came together and how they are connected to each other. I loved Ean-Imaan-Khalil storyline. I thought Baizura Kahar’s and Tony Eusoffe’s acting were superb, although I thought Marya-Sufi storyline was a bit mengarut and corny to the max. Kasut aircond?? Seriously??

What else? Oh yeah, Afdlin was … Afdlin. The character was created for him. I don’t see anyone else playing “Adam”. He was funny yet you can feel his loneliness. I’m sure a lot of people can relate with Adam. Always being invited to weddings but don’t know when you are getting married yourself. Always putting on a tough exterior and making jokes when on the inside it hurts like hell to feel so alone. Yeah, I can relate to Adam.

Anyways, I would still recommend that you watch the movie. Bring some tissue ya. You won’t cry throughout the whole movie but you will definitely cry at some parts. Just be prepared.

Wedding Woes...The Aftermath...

Remember this?

Well, her second husband turns out to be a drunk. He comes home drunk almost every night, harasses the kids in the village and blasts the music loudly during Friday prayers. I head from another aunt that the neighbours are getting really angry with the guy.

My aunt should’ve checked out the guy’s background before marrying him. I know he was the love of her life a long, long time ago but people change. Obviously he was not the same person my aunt fell in love with years ago. Sigh. I pity her kids. Her eldest son doesn’t talk to her and only calls her when he wants his allowance and we suspect that the son is on drugs.

My only concern right now is my aunt and her youngest daughter. If he ever laid his hands on either one of them when he’s drunk, I will personally cut his balls off!

Aku CINTA Sama Kamu!

My husband and I are actively trying to get pregnant. I love kids so much and if I start to think that I may never have one, well it can make me feel really depress. We don't know anything yet for sure but we're seeing a doctor next month just to make sure everything is "working" and there's no problem. Maybe just a matter of "belum ada rezeki lagi"...

Anyway, my SIL just gave birth to her second child last month. I'm telling you, I pity the kid for having such a long name, thanks to my brother of course. I don't know what he was thinking! My 3 year old nephew, Hareez is not very happy with the arrival of his baby sister because he is now no longer an only child. He's so jealous of his baby sister. He refused to lend his baby clothes or his soft toys to his sister.

But I can tell that Hareez is still my brother's favourite. I mean Hareez is really close to his dad. He only sleeps with his dad and only wants his dad to bath him and change him, not his mum. He only goes to his mum when he's hungry.

WELCOME TO THE WORLD MISS MAIZATUL SABREENA CINTA!!!